"A New Year's Prayer"

Dear God: I know I have made mistakes this year, but I am hoping that you will find it in Your Eternal goodness to look over me in the coming year. May You guide me to always do right and to be the best person I can possibly be. And please look over those people in my life who mean so much to me‹my family, Ethan, and Whitney especially. Thank you, O Lord, for all your blessings. I will do my best this year to deserve them.

Thursday, January 10, 2002

"New Year's Resolutions"

6. Tell Ethan I love him every single day
7. Save up to buy Mama a day at the spa (to make up for all the stress I caused her)
8. Help Ethan get his law practice off the ground
9. Cook a family dinner once a week so we can all be together
10. Spend a moment each day being grateful for everything I have.

Wednesday, January 9, 2002

"New Year's Resolutions"

1. Marry Ethan, the sooner, the better.
2. Stop getting myself into situations that I have to lie myself out of.
3. Never go near Julian Crane again.
4. Be there for Luis and Miguel more, they are both going through hard times.
5. Get Chad and Whitney back together.

Tuesday, January 8, 2002

"Vibes"

I have the strangest feeling that if I can just make it through tonight, then everything will be okay. God, I sound like Charity... although I guess it makes sense that I feel this way tonight, considering everything I went through today. Seriously though, I feel like tonight is the moment of truth and that if nothing bad happens, then Ethan and I will be okay. Could that really be? Could it be that if I don't turn into a pumpkin (or something worse!) within the next few hours, then Ethan and I can live happily ever after? I wonder...

Monday, January 7, 2002

"Ringing in the New Year"

I hope I look somewhat presentable–or at least better than I feel on the inside. The last thing on earth that I want to do right now is go to a party...but I know I have no choice. If I don't go, Ethan (not to mention Ivy) will be suspicious and I can't take that chance. The thing is, after the day I've had and everything I've gone through, all I want to do is curl up in bed. More than anything, I wish I could go to sleep and forget that this horrible day ever happened. Well, I guess there's one good thing about tonight. It is New Year's Eve after all...the beginning of a New Year. Maybe that means that starting tomorrow, the slate will be officially wiped clean and I can have a brand new, fresh start...